When I walked in Sophie's room tonight to tuck her in I found the three (Sophie, Noah, Calvin) in complete contentment with each other's company. Sophie was laying on her back with Calvin laying on top of her, and he was just pleased as peaches. Noah was softly rubbing Calvin's head. It's good to be home.
It's been really tough the last few days. We went to Bangkok to get Calvin's skull checked out and ended up finding out some really difficult things. It appears that the bones are still opened a bit but the problem is that the brain is not growing well. The CT scan also shows brain atrophy, calcification, and lots of extra cerebral fluid. Calvin is also developing quite a bit of rigidity in his limbs. The doctors have not reached an official diagnosis at this time but we are expecting that he has cerebral palsy and possibly other difficulties.
Our hearts are broken for our son. We want to protect him and feel utterly powerless to do so. We want to take his suffering for him but cannot. We are scared to see him go through pain and suffering. It's hard. I never knew it would be so hard to see a child suffer. Breaks my heart in pieces. There's an overwhelming sadness in our hearts right now. We are praying for strength and grace to breathe the next breath, put one foot in front of the other, keep on living.
Would you pray for us and for Calvin? We need your prayers and support. Thank you, friend.